While I normally come off as a Susie homemaker type, once in
awhile I surprise even myself with hobbies and passions I didn’t realize that I
loved until I have experienced them. This is the first of several posts that I will
write in the coming months about said passions.
This past fall, life, as I know it, once again paused for Shooting Sports
weekend. Unbeknownst to the majority of the population of Indiana, a group of
dedicated volunteers meet twice a year at Camp Ross in West Lafayette to teach
adults how to be safe and effective shooting sports instructors.
Of course these instructors had never met me, or they would have run for the
hills. Or perhaps they HAD heard of me and were hatching plans of escape.
Whatever the case might have been, L1 and I gathered our things and headed down
to West Lafayette to meet up with Laporte County for a geriatric supper at 330
in the afternoon.
You may ask WHY we were eating so early, but with the check in time being at
5 p.m. CST, we seem to always eat at 3:30 in the afternoon on the Friday of
shooting sports camp. (I look at it as a training run for learning to beat the
crowds to supper once I am finally able to brandish that senior discount. ;)
Upon arriving at camp, L1 and I parked the van and went to check in. I am
not really sure how we managed it, but we sort of cut in front of twenty or so
people in our eagerness to start the weekend. Our reunion with Chris was
heartfelt; as was every other reunion we had that weekend. L1 and I were
assigned room 9.
I had been in room 9 the first go round, so I was well aware of the bed from
H-E double hockey sticks that was stuck in the corner. It looked innocent
enough, until you crawled into it. At that point you realized its capacity to
be a torture chamber. I artfully avoided said bed, and opted for another,
snagging top bunk. L1 selected the bunk beneath mine, and we were good to go.
Lynn, from Laporte County, was concerned that she may not be placed in our
room. I told her to just ask Chris to PLEASE put her in with us. With a bit of
finagling, Chris made it happen. Just another reason I love state staff. They
truly do care, even about the seemingly little things.
As is par for the course every Friday evening of camp, it started pouring
down rain while we unloaded the van. It only took us three trips. That must be
a record. I am notorious for over packing for the weekend, but I see it this
way: I am going to be outside all weekend, never knowing if it will be cold,
hot, wet, dry, etc. I want to have everything I MIGHT need to be as comfortable
as possible. There used to be a time where I could pack for a 10-day mission
trip across the country with only one small duffel bag. Sigh. I must be getting
old. ;)
I retired to room 9 to attempt sleep, however the sounds of snoring, paired
with the bed conditions kept sleep at bay. With no cell service, I just laid
there, wondering what in the world I was thinking when I signed up for
muzzleloader class.
Muzzleloaders are great things. Really. They are. The problem is that they
are really big. And loud. And messy. And loud. And heavy. Did I mention that
they are LOUD?!? I had shot one once, in the spring. I had almost freaked out
at the very THOUGHT of shooting it, but somehow muscled my way through it.
Truth be known, I didn’t even WANT to take muzzleloaders. The only reason I
did, was because it was the last discipline that Jeremy needed to take, and I
always go to class with Jeremy, so hesitantly I signed up.
I finally left the grandiose idea of sweet slumber behind and got ready for
the ¼ mile hike to go to coffee hour. I love coffee hour at camp. It is such a
gathering of fantastic people at 530 in the morning (430 CST). We all gather
round the coffee pot, teasing and chatting until breakfast is served at 7 am. I
look forward to the time to get to visit with shooting sports instructors from
across the state.
At last, it was time to head off to class. After a few words of welcome from
Tim, we were dismissed to our classrooms. I made no secret of the fact that I
was in muzzleloader class solely on the fact that Jeremy was there and since he
was my protector, I was hoodwinked into signing up as well. As I entered the
class, I told the instructors that my name was Annie and this was Jeremy and we
came as a matched set. They all just looked at me like I was a tad crazy, but agreed
to let me stay glued to him for the time being.
Being the OCD girl that I am, I listened closely, taking several pages of
notes, as there was to be a 100-question test at 9 pm. We practiced loading the
muzzleloader, using a Pringles can, felt and a tennis ball. We learned the
rules of firearm safety. We learned the steps to shooting a firearm. I learned
that I can only take in so many facts at one time or my head will spin. When I
felt that I was most surely at the breaking point, the instructors announced it
was time to go to the range.
The previous evening, I had tried out my amplified ear protection. They made
it possible to hear everything going on around me, but muffling the shots when
the firearms went off. What a great idea! I also realized that my usual
hairstyle wasn’t going to work very well. The bobby pins hurt my head with the
earmuffs on, so I switched to braids with success. Of course I then looked like
Pippi Longstocking, but I didn’t even care. I was aiming for comfort, not
style. ;)
Lois, Jerry, Doug, and Mark were wonderful instructors. The rest of the
class (6 guys) were very familiar with firearms and seemed to not be
intimidated in the least by the very loud and heavy muzzleloaders that were set
before us. In contrast, I was out and out scared. Thoughts raced through my
mind…what if I loaded it wrong? What if it blew up in my face? What if I was
horrible at aiming?…ugh.
I watched as Jeremy loaded the muzzleloader…first the powder…then the
patch…then the ball…the tamping….so much tamping! FINALLY we were ready to go
to the firing line. As “coach”, I was dutifully beside him, pretending to know
what I was doing. Mercifully, Jeremy quietly told me what to do so I could then
loudly tell HIM. This is exactly why I have always stuck close to Jeremy at
these camps. He never makes me feel stupid. He always encourages me.
Jeremy aimed and fired, hitting his target. I was so excited for him that I
hopped around and clapped. Jeremy was used to this behavior, but the others
weren’t. Boy, were THEY in for an education!
As usual, I was last at trying my hand at the whole muzzleloader experience.
I always like to go last so I can watch everyone else to make sure I do it
correctly. I loaded my inline muzzleloader, being careful to include every
step. I then marched to the firing line, Jeremy right behind me. Shaking, I
looked Jeremy in the eye and asked if the muzzleloader would hurt me. He told
me no, it wouldn’t. I made him promise. He promised. I then turned, aimed, and
fired, keeping both eyes open until the last second.
After the voluminous smoke had cleared, and the large boom had faded away
into the distance, I heard the faint squeaking of the metal gong target
swinging back and forth. I started screaming and jumping up and down, celebrating
my victory over fear once more. I happily returned to the bench to clean the
barrel and move on to the side lock percussion muzzleloader.
Every time it was my turn, I relished in the routine and exactness of the
muzzleloading. I also hit 7 of my 8 shots throughout the day, squealing with
joy every time. Apparently all of the other disciplines got to share in my joy,
as many came up to me later, stating that they knew when I had hit something,
because they heard me screaming and clapping. So glad they got to share in the
joy!
After lunch, we learned the history of the muzzleloader. Jerry knew so much
about the history, that I wish we would have had more time to delve further
into the topic. During this time, I was allowed to hold a pistol that was used
in the revolutionary war. I found it all so fascinating and foreign, yet I knew
I was slowly falling in love with muzzleloaders…the history…the routine…the
exactness, everytime….sigh…. I was in OCD heaven!
In the afternoon we had the opportunity to shoot a muzzleloading pistol, a
flintlock, and a matchlock musket. The matchlock was seriously as tall I was.
It also held a HUGE ball. There was no cap for the matchlock. Instead, the was
a smoldering piece of rope that touched off the black powder…right in front of
YOUR FACE. I somehow missed THAT important piece of information. One minute I
am sitting there all excited about shooting the biggest firearm of my life, the
next, I am wondering what in the world happened, and did I still have my
eyebrows? I joyously celebrated my actually shooting off such a large gun, and
moved on. It was a good 20 minutes later before Lois informed me that I had
actually HIT the target! I had been so preoccupied taking inventory of my face
that I had not even looked to see if I hit something. I celebrated like it was
1999 let me tell you!
One of my favorite parts of muzzleloading was cleaning the firearms. Given I
was terrible at it, but I enjoyed trying it anyway. I even got to reassemble a
muzzleloader all on my own! I am sure that JP will love to put my new skill to
use in the very near future.
After a wonderful supper of prime rib, the muzzleloading class took a spin
on the even more primitive side, and learned to throw tomahawks. I do believe I
have found my niche. I OWNED those boys on tomahawks. They may be better at
firearms, but I was all over the tomahawk throwing. I threw them forwards. I
threw them backwards. I threw them double. I rocked the tomahawks!!! Woo to the
HOOOOOO!!!!!!
After the fun of tomahawks, we went back to class to study for the test that
we took at 9pm. By this point, I had so much information in my poor head, that
it just shutdown. I was not able to jam anything else in. Trepidatiously I took
the 100 question test from Lois and began. By the time I turned it in, I was
shaking and near tears. I waited with dread as the instructors graded it. I had
walked into the class that morning, knowing nothing about muzzleloaders. I had
now, 14 hours later, taken a test that I needed to pass to become a certified
instructor. I scored 99 out of 100. While not a perfect score, I was still
happy that I passed.
Knowing that we were going to have to plan a teaching practicum for the next
day, I had already written up suggestions for what we should do. The boys agreed
with the plan. After breaking it all up into parts and assigning roles, we all
went to bed, thankful for the rest.
Sunday morning, after an early coffee run, I headed to church at 615 est.
that is 515 CST. I am pretty sure that was the earliest church service that I
have ever attended. It is also ranked among the best. While waiting for the
church to be unlocked, a group of us gathered outside to gaze at the stars.
Such beauty to behold in the heavens.
As Dennis welcomed us to church, I prayed the opening prayer and led us in
an opening hymn. Usually we just listen to the sermon and leave. This time we
had asked ahead of time if we could sing as well. After an amazing and
convicting sermon from Dennis, we sang hymn after hymn, all from memory….some
just humming along when words were forgotten. I do not think I have ever felt
as close to God as I did, sitting in that little white chapel at 630 in the
morning, raising our voices in praises to our Lord. We closed our time together
singing the Doxology.
As the weekend wrapped up, we went through graduation, receiving our patches
and diplomas. I was so proud and happy to have not only passed, but to have
done so successfully.
It was at this point that it sank in…I was effectively shooting a type of
firearm that men and women, hundreds of years ago, used as well. I had fallen
in love with muzzleloading. Sometime between my scared scurry into class
Saturday morning and my confident demeanor on Sunday afternoon, the love of
muzzleloading had snuck into my life.
The historical significance….the repetition…the exactness…the feel of the
firearm in my hands…the flash…the smoke…the smell…all of it represented so much
more to me than just a simple firearm going off. It represented hundreds, even
thousands of years of firearms. It represented that once more I was able to
brave my fears, facing them dead on and claiming victory over them. It
represented that each day that I am willing to leave my comfort zone and open
myself to vulnerability and the chance of failing, I am also able to open
myself to the successes and triumphs that lay in wait along my path in life.
I am not saying that each of us will fall in love with muzzleloading as I
have. However, I AM saying that once in awhile, each of us need to choose the
road less traveled, for we know not what may lay ahead. If a middle aged Susie
homemaker housewife from the Midwest can lay down her apron for a weekend to
try her hand at muzzleloading, a concept that is completely foreign to her,
imagine what YOU can do in YOUR life.
As Robert Frost famously wrote, “I took the road less
traveled by, and that has made all the difference.” I challenge you today…don’t
only TAKE the road less traveled….CHARGE it. Charge forward. Try something new.
Something out of your comfort zone. Something that you have secretly wished to
do. Take a class. Take a trip. Pick up the phone. Whatever your road less
traveled may be, take with you this, from Dylan Thomas, “Do not go gentle into
that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage
against the dying of the light.” Rage, my friends. Rage. Challenge each day of
your life, living it to the fullest.